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i know it's lame to start an entry off by talking about the weather, but how amazing have the past three days been?
running has been so nice, and my mood has improved 200%.

i dunno if anyone's noticed or not, but i've been pretty depressed over the past month and a half. i got a little worried b/c it was too far past that two-week point to be just a random depression. it felt like i did when i was in high school - chronically depressed.

anyways, the past few days have been MUCH better. i'm back to working out regularly, i'm feeling mentally much better, not so gloomy.
i'm thinking it was a combination of it getting really cold, LOTS of relationship drama, working really hard at the end of november, followed by a month of doing pretty much NOTHING over winter break. i just felt so discouraged and worthless. class started up again though, and surprisingly that has helped.
i'm worried a little that i'll slip back into it when it gets cold again...but hopefully not.

the national championship game last night was once again a huge disappointment. but i'm getting used to it. I was pretty mad and upset for awhile last night. I felt like throwing things. At one point I just layed down on the couch and closed my eyes, thinking "this can't be happening again..." ...but it was. seriously, this misery has to be unprecented...the list just keeps getting longer. 06 football bucks...07 bball bucks...cavs...destroyers...indians...browns missing playoffs...07 football bucks...
am i missing anything?

well i felt like swearing off all sports but i realized i love them too much. next season...i can't get rid of my optimism. i can't swear off my team...no matter how much they may disappoint. damn...my whole life, i've felt in my heart that it's a championship is going to happen someday for one of my teams. now i'm realizing, that MAY never happen. i dunno how i'm dealing with that.

anyways, campus was gloomy today, not just cuz it was overcast, but it was just way more quiet than normal. No one was wearing their scarlet or gray.
I wore gray, but that was only because I wore gray to bed, lol.

Half-marathon training starts in two weeks!

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