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10:07pm: tuesday's speed workout, 03-17-09

2:39pm: sunday's long run, 03-15-09
 90 minutes, 12.7 miles

legs are tired.

10:56am: thursday's speed workout, 03-12-09
total distance: 5.08 miles
total time: 36:00

1 mile warm up

10x hills
(1 minute hard, 1 min easy)

.90 mile cool down


great workout on the treadmill...hills were easy, until last 3-4. was only supposed to do 8 but I felt great so I added two more at 6.0 incline and 10+ mph.

knees did not trouble me whatsoever, no pain. little bit of stomache pain from illness unrelated to running. i was glad to get this workout in. i'm a slight bit behind in my training so i'm gonna try to throw in a tempo run in addition to the long run this weekend...we'll see how that plays out.

the time is...now!

10:55am: wednesday's run, 03-11-09
ran with matt...easy run of 4 miles, in 29:33.

7:23 pace, felt slightly flat. knee minor aches.

9:08pm: my first real song recording...
spent some time on this tonight.  i think it came out well...

i didn't write this song, but it is my recording of it. 


http://www.zshare.net/audio/5690323669959785/


if you have a thought, let me know it.

4:27pm: tuesday's run, 03-10-09
i forgot to post this yesterday as i was super busy after my run.

practice 5k for training.

10 minute warmup, stretch, all-out 5k, 15 minute cool down, stretch.

5k time: 17:39.


not bad without competition/race adrenaline. the pace definitely felt weird, i'm not used to running that fast at all. first mile was around 5:50 and the overall pace ended up being 5:41, so that was good. i have a tendency to over-exert the first mile so it was good i kept my pace pretty consistent, if not improving!

also good was the fact that the knee didn't hurt during the run, although it did ache a little after. stretching should keep it in trainable shape. at this point, it's going to be a bother but doesn't look like it's going to significantly hinder my training.

"revolution in the head don't count for nothing, you gotta move your ass."
the time is now!

8:01pm: monday's run, 03-09-09
41:01, 6.2 miles

6:36 pace

slight knee pain. :(

9:35am: friday's easy run, 03-06-09
4.1 miles, 29:33.

7:12 pace.

Knee hurt a bit. Grr.

9:14am: thursday's track workout, 03-05-09
1 mile warm up, stretch, 8x400s, 1 mile cool down, stretch.

400 times:

77 - 72 - 73 - 71 - 70 - 71 - 69 - 67


all day I had been putting this workout off. really, since monday I have been putting it off. i was, in a way, scared to have a bad workout. everything has been going so well with my training, and i was sort of worried a bad workout would derail it. in the end, it was the worrying that threatened to derail it. but, no more.

I AM NO LONGER SCARED OF TRACK WORKOUTS.

there were so many times when I could have just packed it up, and skipped it. Done a different workout. But i didn't, in the end, I got it done. And it felt great!

The best part is that there was no one there to see it. I could have went for an easy run. I could have done a lap around the track and gone home. But no, I was racing against myself, I proved to myself that this time is different. I'm not going to fade away, I'm not going to give up.
I could have stopped, and dogged the eighth repeat. But I didn't - I attacked it, just like I had attacked the seven before it, and just like i'm going to attack every single one of those miles on may 2nd.

THE TIME IS NOW!

8:57pm: wednesday's easy run, 03-04-09
4.6 miles, 32:00 minutes

the time is now.

after a short break due to issues and weather, i'm hopefully back on track. i missed one important workout, which i'm not happy about, but i will get back on track. i'm not gonna stumble, i ain't gonna stop, nobody's gonna bring me down.

12:57pm: i've had a stomachache all day and i know exactly why. i'm just emo... sort of feels like someone took a great big ice cream scoop and scooped out all my guts. why does emotional pain transfer itself into physical feelings in that way?

mainly i'm just trying to figure out what i'm going to do. i can't un-feel the way i do but i'm not going to be a fool about it, either. i know you can't force anyone to feel a certain way...besides i dont want to force anyone to feel some way artificially. hmm. tough questions, this is a really hard thing to deal with.

my mind and my heart are pulling me in opposite directions, but neither one has a clear path. i don't want to feel this way. i don't want to be emotional about this. i just want to not care, to let it go. why can't i do that?

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it doesn't help that other things are being difficult right now. i really just want to get outside, stretch my legs and run...keep doing my workouts and hard training. But it was ten effing degrees outside this morning, with a wind chill below zero...making it physically damn-near impossible for me to do my track workout. indoor track anywhere? the treadmill doesn't go fast enough for me to do the workout i need to. grr. i NEED to stay on track with this training, i'm not going to let myself slip an inch because pretty soon an inch will be a mile. no excuses.

second, it's been busier at work lately. today especially sucks because people in my department are out and i am having to do twice the work, since i have to do mine AND theirs. not cool...im going to take a day off. i dont mind when i have advance notice, or when people go on vacation, etc. but it's the same people that are always having issues. i have issues too, but i still come to work. i'm starting to hold a grudge about it.

not to beat a dead baby, but i feel like, okay, i could deal with all this stuff in my life were the aforementioned situation different. you know, none of that stuff really matters - i can spend 8 hours a day doing work, as long as i know there's something for me that's right at home. sort of a security blanket, if you will.

without that, it's so much harder to do everything else.
and so, today, i am struggling.

i wish i could wear my sunglasses to work.

2:06pm: saturday's long run, 02-28-09
13.1 miles (the half-marathon course)
1:24:58!

+1.5 mile warm up and 1.5 mile cool down

the best part about that is that i ran negative splits (second half faster than the first). that's exactly what i want to do in the race, because i can bust it out the second half instead of struggling to hold on. i really didn't start to tire until around mile 8, and my times didnt slip until about the last mile. flippin a!

i definitely cant complain about being 4:30 off my PR two weeks into my training and with two months of hard training left to go. i want to shatter 1:20. i want to slay the competition. kill! kill! kill!

the time is not 10:57, its NOW!

in other stuff, im still contemplating running the 3-miler tomorrow in Pickerington for training. Part of the reason i did a long run today is I feel like just running a 5k is somehow cheating my training...like it's not hard enough. part of me even wants to do the 15-miler tomorrow and make it a 30 mile weekend :)
but i'll probably just hold off and do a 5k next weekend. we shall seeeeeeee.

9:01am: thursday's easy run, 02-26-09
39:33, 5.4 miles

7:21 pace

nice and easy run in the warm weather this morning!



Why do I do
I get on the same old rhymes
Why do I do
The things that I know ain’t right
Why do I do
I trip on the same old lines
Why do I do that to myself
Oh why

9:20pm: wednesday's tempo run, 02-25-09
30 minute tempo run

total time: 29:55
total distance: 4.93 miles

avg pace=6:04


c'est maintenant qu'il faut agir!

6:43pm: tuesday's easy run, 02-24-09
32:33; 4.6 miles

including a 5:49 mile that i did for fun (and i actually mean for fun...there's a measured mile along the path i was running, and i got to the start of it, and got the urge to kick for a minute. It felt easy and really good, so i thought, what the hell, i'll keep this up. Ended up doing the mile in an EASY 5:49. What can i say? It's been a weird day.)


anyways, that just means i'm somehow already in shape and the most important thing is going to be staying healthy and consistently doing the long runs and speedwork. i feel really good about this. the time is NOW!

check out this tune btw. it's appropriate to this post because it was starting just as i was starting that fast mile...

8:10am: monday's speed workout, 02-23-09
total distance: 4.10
total time: 30:05

1 mile warm up

7x hills
(1 minute hard, 1 min easy)

1 mile cool down



the time is now!!!

1:27pm: saturday's long run, 02-21-09
13.1 miles, 1:30:41

 i was only 6 seconds off last week's run! 6 seconds!  this one was tougher though, and i'm more proud of it because I fought through really wanting to stop and quit. something kept me going though, and i'm glad for the training. i'm gonna need that fight come race day.

injury update: the knee was fine and still feels fine. my calves are a lot less sore than after last week's long run, i can move around much easier. HOWEVER, now i am suffering the attack of the blisters. there's one right underneath my big toe on my right foot that hurts...it's so sore. another one on that foot's heal, and another one on my second toe of my left foot. yowch. i sent pictures of them all to my dad...he said i might lose the one toenail :(

but hopefully it'll all be alright, they'll get better. glad to be done with another run, this has been a great week of training, and i should start seeing the results in about another week.

11:35pm: friday's run 02-20-09
easy run-slash-knee rehab

4.03 miles, 30:00

+lifting


i was able to run with minimal pain in my knee, which is a good sign. my dad advised me to keep running and just take two aleve everyday, which i should  be doing already for my toe anyways.
tomorrow is a long run! we shall see how that goes, i'm kind of excited for it, and excited to get it done. 

the time is now!

9:00am: too many pills...
i just swallowed, in order,

a mucinex (for my stuffed nose)
glocosamine & condroitin sulfate (for my arthritis)
fish oil omega 3
antibiotic (for my hand)
and a multivitamin


i feel so old!

7:22am: wednesday's run, 02-18-09
45 minute tempo run

45:00; 6.7 miles


6:43 overall pace


the time is now!! 

7:24am: easy run, Tuesday 02-17-09
 30:00, 4.1 miles

the time is now.

12:55pm: interval training, Monday 02-16-09
 7x400s

1.25 mile warm up, stretch, 

71(too fast)
75
74
74
73
71
70

1 mile cooldown, stretch


the time is naowwwwwwwwww!


had an awesome interval workout today...my legs felt like absolute shit this morning, but i coaxed them into running by doing that warmup and as I like to call it, "serious stretching"

after that, they felt like they were good to go, i did a couple practice sprints and had no pain, so i started my workout. i came across the first hundred of the first interval in 22, and mini-freaked, as my goal for the first one was an 80 (i wanted to average 78). so i picked it up and ended up finishing in 71. i was pissed at myself and swore a few times, as i thought that was too fast...could have really messed up my workout. the next one i took it easy and still came in at 75, which was a nice baseline and i got in the mindset that i could keep that pace up at the bare minimum. none of them were too hard, i really pushed myself on the last two, and as i was finishing the last one i checked my watch to see that it was my fastest! flippin sweet. i did a fist pump and threw my headband. i never have that much emotion, but i was pumped. great workout.

of course, i can barely walk now...you know your muscles ache when its harder to go down stairs than up them...but at least tomorrow is an easy day.

4:13pm: Sunday's run, 02-15-09
4.3 miles; 30:38

pace= 7:05

the time is NOWWW.

9:59am: ...and so it begins

there are 3 things i want to post about this am:

1) i made good on my goal to start marathon training yesterday. last night, i started out with a bang by running 13.1 miles in 1:30:35. I hit the 13 mile point right before 90 minutes and I was happy because around the 10 mile point I wasn't on pace for that, and I was able to pick it to hit that. Average pace = 6:54. Also of note, I was less than 10 minutes off my best half marathon ever, at about 70-75% of the effort...nice.
Plus I like the idea that i'm starting off my training with 13.1 miles and it will end with a run of 13.1, so there's a symmetry... ;)

this also clears the way for a repeat (intervals) day on monday, since I have off...i'm really going to buckle down and kick my own ass in this training, it's time.

ALSO, i'm happy about my run because i lost a lot of blood yesterday morning. i'm fake blood-doping, haha. this brings me to my second point.

2) my dad had to do (minor) surgery on my hand yesterday...due to the fact that my cut might have one or two bits of broken glass still in it. I had to get two shots of local anasthetic (in my palm...ouch), before he could start digging around. It took awhile before it was completely numb but still I could feel movement and metal deep down in my hand...let's just say that was a bit uncomfortable. eeeek, there was a lot of blood that had to keep being wiped away. i tried to watch but just couldn't do it. Don't ever cut yourself on glass a third of the way into your hand...it's just not pretty.

anyways, i'm all bandaged up again, soreness is back with a vengeance, etc. etc. my dad wrapped it really tight so it's a bit of a gimp hand right now...which brings me to point #3.

3) i accidentally dropped baby jesus at church yesterday! well i guess it's not baby jesus, but it was jesus...i blame the stupid wrapping around my arm. you, know, like i told my grandma (i went to church while visiting her and my grandpa), i was always scared that was going to happen. She said, "well, now you don't have to worry anymore," with a laugh. I guess it was kind of funny in retrospect.

but it was really nice to visit them...i used to do that a lot more when i was home more often, especially the summer between my freshman and sophomore college years. my grandma always makes me food, and then she talks and tells me stories for awhile. Sometimes they're not the most exciting, but they are interesting, and i like hearing them. i like that i'm able to make them happy by stopping by.

4) and that's it. this extra point is for today's plans...probably going to kyle's basketball game at 2 then heading down to columbus for zac's birthday dinner at haiku...yum i like that place...i'm v.excited. After that I promised zac and anthony i'd go out to union for a little, so i will, but keep it under control because even though i don't have to work tomorrow (yay!) i still have to do that repeat training. Ugh...

9:37pm: so i think i finally made through the week of being really really poor...the $1300 dollar car payment devasted my bank account to less than $2... :(

but i get paid tomorrow...my rent is due...grr...but im on the road to recovery at least. i think it's going to help me start saving a lot more. in the long run.

in the short run of life i dont know what im gonna do. i'm going to keep on fighting tho, that's for sure. im a fighter! how ya gon' stop me now!

i honestly think i've turned the corner in a long time battle that is going to make my life so much better...to be vague. and to be even more vague, this has nothing to do with jenny and shane. 

also my skin care regimin is finally starting to pay off!! i think im doing a lot right.

t-2 days until half marathon training starts in earnest. i'm late on that this year but with life changes it should work out. LIFE CHANGES!! LIFE CHANGES!!

i need a new motto... but i cant think any more imma bout to go to bed!! early!!

it is my intention to live blog tomorrow! nightnight. 

i dedicate this post to jarroddly.